oob-experience

yesterday once again my mind was outside my body. i really don’t like this weird and freaky situations, because until now i actually can’t move back in my body by myself, only a deep and long sleep can do this. but since one or two months i can hardly sleep more than three or four hours in the night, and that is mostly not enough. so what could i do, if i never can get back in my body? my free floating mind cannot control my body, so that i only have to see, what strange things he is doing. if i can’t get back by myself, i really have to wait until my body is dead, destroyed, not in function anymore. maybe i, which in this case means my mind, can lead my body to his end, but what, if he don’t like my will to suicide? i am very frightened about this…