the great cold dark december of this bad year of 2010 gives me an extremely heavy winter depression, the ice, the sharp eastern wind and the permanenty falling snow bites my clumsy bones, my poor heart is freezing and shivering, my half closed eyes are blended by the shiny and glowing white snow, which causes me heavy headaches and even some hardcore migraine. my twisted mind is cyrcling around thoughts of death, graveyards, kills, dead bodies and suicide. i think, if i kill myself i will pass away in one of these deep winter months, in a time when it is too heavy to stand all of this painful and mindfucking shit…
i hate this winter, i hope it is going away soon – or i go away, but forever…
Kains Space 